似乎有一段时间没碰书了。
最近开始觉得有点无聊？
所以转进图书馆找书？
不管怎样，看到藤井树这三个字。。。多怀念阿~
其实可以理解为什么他的作品都很红。
因为可以打从心底的感觉到文字所描绘的感触。

~什么乐章，可以弹奏几十年？
没有写曲人，没有演奏者，
更没有满场衣着隆重的嘉宾，
只有你自己。

当音乐声嘎然而止，
没有人站起身来拍手欢呼，
没有镁光灯此起彼落，
更没有人谢幕鞠躬，
只有你自己。

这部乐曲，叫做生命。
而寂寞，是生命的主旋律。~ 藤井树

虽然在外头总是有欢笑，
但是只要一回到家，那个不真正属于自己的家的时候，
在外头开心的时刻，
反而会让回到冷冷清清的房间里时的我，
感觉格外的寂寞。
虽然即将21，虽然这样的生活已经3年了。
只是有时候还是觉得，在这一方面，我还是没有长大。
没有办法克服。
那一种，莫名其妙的寂寞感。
所以我不喜欢一个人吃晚餐，
不喜欢一个人逛街，
不喜欢一个人走在热闹的街道上。
不喜欢这种，会让我看起来格外寂寞的场景。

我是可以独来独往，却又害怕寂寞的人。

Labels: thoughts.

Im wondering what had I been doing for the past week.
For what I noe, im damn tired.
No matter how early I slp, no matter how long I rest.
Hrm..
N now, flu seems to get more serious than day time. ><
Anyway, Sunday manage to meet up that two girls…
Whom having sch hols now..

Meeting up with them makes me think a lot.
But if u rally ask me why, I dunno..
Just having the feeling that.. im not sure what it is.
Study life is fun, but my work life not that bad also.
Just that the feeling is weird, as in when they somehow mention that “ im the first of them to come out n work.”
Ha~

Anyway, im glad that we din really having gaps btw..
Although one working, one in NTU, one in KL…
Although 3 of us are busying to cope with ownselves’ daily living…
Although the last time we did see each other was X’mas…

Labels: daily

`.. wen 时光安安静静的走过,也要偶尔回过头 ..` says: 4 more working days

23:48:02`.. wen 时光安安静静的走过,也要偶尔回过头 ..` says: tong ku arh

23:48:16`.. wen 时光安安静静的走过,也要偶尔回过头 ..` says: update till boss dun care me de

23:48:17`.. wen 时光安安静静的走过,也要偶尔回过头 ..` says: super sian

23:48:19I say: me 5

23:48:33`.. wen 时光安安静静的走过,也要偶尔回过头 ..` says: haha but u happy arh

hrm, yw n mine de conver..
dunno why..
the way she describe my job..
make me.. hrm, wonder..
the feeling i gif ppl really is i enjoying this job?
as i myself also dun really understand my feeling towards this job.
had already adapt to the whole company environment..
and those testing part..
somehow till now, to me all shld be no prob..
but wanted to say enjoy?
hrm, i enjoy the environment there, but towards the work.. am i???
hrm....

Blah, forget it.. slp time..

Labels: daily, thoughts

going from jb custom back to Jurong West is a long long journey.
especially when most of the journey used leg to walk.. ><

today is totally..
hrm.
definitely is speechless..
JB wasnt jamming at all, but there wasnt any bus service..
Waited bus for arnd 40mins, and came one 950..
ppl pushing and pulling to squeeze into that bus...
which is i gif up and decided to walk..

which made my journey today is..
JB custom -> Spore Custom -> nearest bus stop -> Woodlands interchange -> MRT to boonlay -> bus back home..
ORZ...
which made me reach home at 1130pm...

think coming sun shld be a worse one...
since primary and secondary sch reopens next week... ><

Labels: daily

well, is weekend again.
end of sat soon..
alone at home for the whole day, facing pc..
for how long i didnt do this..
ha~
forgot..
since started working i suppose?
as sat usually is outing day?
yup..
this week a bit special then. hoho

anyway..
i m now thinking what happen to my past weekdays' life.
yup, peaceful life..
peaceful working life, which jing described mine, compare to hers.
n i told yw that i shld daily go work happily and come back happily..
ha~
cos my working life if wanted to compare to others..
is more peaceful, more relax (as in for ppl relationship)...
and more fun. XD

well, last week met up with that gang also..
ha~
we can said to be at least meet up once per week? ha~
and finally got Hanni's part of grad pic..
suddenly love Msia's Streamyx line.. if to compare to the Mobile 3G line which i m using now in Spore.
ha~
at least my msn is stable and manage to get me stuff transfer done.



anyway, i love this pic.. XD
let me thought of Angela's + FanFan + GuoJing's that song.. 三人..ha~

Labels: daily, work story

Colleage gave me this link to see which type of person m i.
Some part is accurate for mine, but some really 100% accurate.
haha~
link as below, enjoy!
http://www.coolboo.com/big5/love/nov.htm

8月20日 心懷秘密的人
宮位：獅子座26º-28º
獅子處女座
固定的火象
8月20日出生的人很可能會被過去所發生的事給左右，甚至被它們支配著大半生，而這些事又被他們隱藏在內心深處，不讓任何人知道。比較有勇氣的人會坦然面對這些個人難解的迷題，并花上多年的時間試著解決這些困惑。然而，除了最親近的知己之外，周圍的人并不容易察覺到他們隱藏在內心的秘密，因此，不管他們在事業或其他方面多么成功，他們始終活得非常孤獨。

有時，連他們自己也不太清楚這些秘密的本質雖然他們知道有一些事固執著他們，但卻不十分清楚到底是什么。在這種情形下，深入研究其內心記憶是十分必須的，因為唯有如此，才能再度成為堅強、自信且不受情緒左右的人。

然而，這并不表示8月20日出生的人個性不活潑或是不喜歡熱鬧，只不過他們的確非常細心、顧慮周詳，就算是在最開懷的時刻也是如此。就因為他們清楚人的一生中所可能遭遇的艱困，所以始終無法對未來抱持樂觀的態度。

由于今天出生的人具有非常丰富的想像力，所以必須將這項特長做建設性的應用，否則整個人將會完全耽溺在想像力中。他們的性格非常復雜，而且不愿與別人分享這方面的事。不過經常困擾他們的不一定始終都是夢境或幻想，也可能是活生生的人，這些人可能十分凶險、具有毀滅性的力量。事實上，這一天出生的人經常是別人傾訴的對象，因為他們相當了解別人的痛苦，而且時常抱持著悲天憫人的態度。所以許多出生于這一天的人都比一般人堅強，因為他們不僅必須面對并征服自己的恐懼，還得設法安撫別人的恐懼。

8月20日出生的人特別喜歡發呆，因為這么一來，才可以暫時忘掉自己。他們十分向往幸福安樂的生活，并期望自己能有機會深入體驗。如果這類充滿喜悅的經驗是水到渠成、自然產生的，而非出自人為的刻意安排，對身心的健康相當有說明。此外，他們應該清楚一件事，那就是當他們從事這類探索時，就等于是將朋友或所愛的人置于二選一的情況下：若非參與他的研究，就是將他隔離在外。

几乎沒有例外地，8月20日出生的人都是個性安靜、說話輕柔的人，也不太喜歡受到他人的矚目，只有和親密的人在一起，或是在一種能讓他們感到信任與充滿溫情的環境下，才有可能放輕松，甚至無拘無束。

幸運數字和守護星
8月20日出生的人會受到數字2和月亮的影響。受數字2影響的人傾向于溫和、富有想像力，但是也容易因為別人的批評、忽視而受傷，因此總是采取防御的態度來看待事情，動不動就想發脾氣（因受到獅子座的主宰行星太陽的影響）。而受制于月亮的人，一般來說比較敏感，思想也容易受情感的左右。由于受獅子座的影響，今天出生的人通常擁有強大的體能，當然，在這獅子宮與處女宮交會之時，免不了在心智上會有強烈的影響力，這是因為處女的主宰行星是水星的緣故。

健康
如上所述，出生于8月20日的人必須特別小心，不要讓自己沉迷在藥物、性愛活動、食物及各種偏執的嗜好中。一般說來，他們都很難耐生活中的痛苦（或無聊），但是這種想法卻很可能會導致他們偏離正軌，因此，對出生于這一天的人來說，想要過著健康的的生活，只能求諸個人的自我約束了。幸好他們的運動細胞都不錯，只要感到旺盛的精力無處發泄時，自然就會用散步或游泳等方式化解。8月20日出生的人必須要防范腹部及內臟器官的毛病，尤其是肝臟與腎臟方面的疾病，建議他們要每年進行身體健康檢查。

建議
一旦了解或意識到事實的真相后，過去的陰影就比較容易遺忘。讓過去成為過去吧！不要太專法在那些事情上，事實上，“今天”就是一個全新的開始。積極地尋求喜悅，讓自己成為所有可能中的最好的一個。


塔羅牌

大秘儀塔羅牌的第20張是[審判]。這張牌鼓勵當事者拋開物質上的束縛，尋求更高境界的靈性生活。牌面的圖案是吹著號角的天使，象征負有重任的嶄新的一天。這張牌具有超越自我、發掘無窮潛力的正面特質，至于負面的引喻則是“號角聲多半報喜不報憂，容易沉溺在歡樂的追逐中，并且缺少面對憂傷的能力。

靜思語

現在，就是我們所存在與所擁有的一切，然而我們也明白它很微不足道，而且轉眼即逝。

優點
有想像力、有同情心、有勇氣。

缺點
惶惑不安、孤獨、逃避現實。

Words in purple are those really match me de..
Others.. Hrm..
HAHA~
but somehow, is interesting. LOL

Labels: daily

another new week.
time flies.
the 4th week im in ecolab.

today, dont really feel the blues..
maybe there always got samples to keep me occupied..
lol..
i rather busy than noth to do. ;)

anyway, i think i still nid time to adapt to the Friday's custom jam.
me friday after work always damn no mood de..
haiz..
when will my PR get approve?
i want access card!!!

Labels: daily, work story

damn tired today
although din really affect of the working condition...

last nite was a "laughing" nite.
after the robe returning, dinner at Jack Place.
and really laugh a lot.
hrm, all thanks to des, whom can link all our topics to JOKES..
n is COLD jokes.
n which ended our dinner quite late
and reach home late.

that is why i m so so tired today...
and today working hr is long..
left company at 7pm..
hrm... i stay back to get a better result for one of the testing.
but still cldnt get into the range..
hrm..
wondering if is my method of carrying out the testing got prob or sample prob...

okay, edy mid of week..
2 more day~ =)

Labels: daily, work story

i think now i really understand what is the meaning of MONDAY BLUES
haha~
as usually sunday morning will be waking up late
thus
sunday nite will not be able to slp as early as usual
so
monday usually is the most dead day to work
haha~
today arnd 2+ 3+pm, i was quite out of situation..
i was teached to use a new equipment,
but not hands-on..
so basically im 1/2 dozing off..
haha`
can imagine?
standing, listening to explanation, while,
1/2 aslp. =X

hrm, heard that this month is a busy month.
how busy can that be?
arnd 80 batches per week?
at least 15 samples per day?
hrm..
oh well, busy not not good..
busy is good.. haha~
just...
hahaha~
sometimes lazy u see..
but im looking forward to see how busy can this month be..
anyway, today already is a busy day.
haha~

Labels: daily, work story