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Friday, March 28, 2008 @ 1:17 AM
YES, I KNOW !!!
finished the nearly 2hrs Proposal SP in between were naggings and sound of banging of doors in the 12+ midnite... irritating but i was ignoring which made me now totally moodless to talk abt the SP i wonder why m i always kena nag abt the job searching was asked why din go search for last Sun's paper when i was in spore on Mon? i rather lazy to explain all even can get the newspaper, that wasnt ensure that i can get any chance inside... just that weekend's newspaper i din buy is that really big deal? yeah yeah, i noe i noe.. "if cant get a perm job, go get a temp. if cant get polymer related's, go do admin. if polymer's diploma useless, switch field pls? cos since diploma nobody cares to giva a chance of interview, so what for to continue waiting?" anyone in the family cares to know what im thinking? which i doubt so... to me, WORDS and LINES are the best thing to deny what i have, but yet, they do like to use the same method on me. pressurise me dont lead to any better outcome those 激将法is definitely useless to me anybody realise this? NOPE definitely, in this family... NOPE i KNOW it is useless to me as a DIPLOMA holder, especially in those feilds that is bloody non-pop.. n i KNOW it is a WRONG decision for me to choose this course, or rather poly? n i also KNOW that i am EXTRA in this family whereby im not a student nor a "society contributer".. so, instead of nagging, instead of pressuring... can just directly COMMAND me what to do? dont ASKED, just FORCE. dont ever stop when i talk back, or, shld u pointed me with a knife, and ask me to get myself a non-related, just someth that can, immediately occupied me? oh ya, pls, dont ask me to stay at home when, u dont wish to see me.. u are the one who asked me stay and back to spore next mon de.. can u make this clear? Labels: daily, thoughts
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Sunday, March 23, 2008 @ 4:16 PM
horrible sunday
oh my, what a Sun is this? hrm, went for facial doctor appointment this morning and he changed the med for me well, this med needed blood test, so.. erm, ya.. tat was pain.. somehow, the feeling of the needle inside ur skin was, awful.. >< and next, after lunch... was dental appointment which was far worse than the blood test... i knew my teeth got prob but i nvr noe there's a big hole in my tooth.. well, the stupid wisdom tooth which grew side ways block the one beside it and food was easily stuck inside causing tooth decay.. and the only way to solve, is to pluck of the wisdom tooth.. RM400 per operation, one hr at least and the prob is... i got 2 "side-growing" wisdom teeth.. @@ oh well, that decay tooth was cleaned and ment.. i really hate the sound of all the machines used inside my mouth.. i hate the wind blowing towards my tooth.. i hate everyth inside... ish.. that was pain!!!! i wonder when will i have the courage to settle both the wisdom teeth.. horrible!! and, can u guess? my FYP's supervisor, he emailed geraldine that he just back from India.. and was asking how's our fyp going on.. wahahahaha~ he is so damn CUTE!!! dont he noe that we had already GRADUATE?? hrm.... Labels: daily
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008 @ 12:22 AM
blah
凭想象 一切都似乎很简单 只是每一次的亲身经历之后都会发觉 真的是想得容易 现实生活 一切都并非如此
我还是想说 还是想自己决定自己的未来 请不要再建议我做一些不属于我过去三年不相关的行业 因为我想为自己的未来负责 自己有抱负 自己有理想 虽然现在似乎什么都没办法作 什么也没办法改变
时间 多给我一些 好吗？ Labels: daily, thoughts
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Monday, March 17, 2008 @ 9:01 PM
changes needed
can anyone tell me what u ll do if u start to hate the life u having now? everyth seems needing a change in my life now from a student to a grad which now i still not use to it n now the future seems lost really lost everyth dont seems to in its order no money no job n now not eve a place to live in after next month i mean in spore of cos the feeling is wierd start to hate those words only sporeans and PRs need to apply..
got the "no place cld fit me in" 's feeling.. somehow i belongs to no where.. lost lost lost Labels: daily, thoughts
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Sunday, March 16, 2008 @ 2:05 AM
-titleless-
i am lost troubled irritated floating and i hated all the above Labels: daily, thoughts
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008 @ 11:56 PM
long journey
yup was back in spore today main objective is went to that RE to ask them helped me find a perm job and arnd 3+pm called me when i was in cinema and after i called back told me was an admin work.. hrm after lunch @ hk restaurant was the movie i craving vy long le Koizora - Sky of Love details in next post... the back journey was a long long one long enough from orchard to kranji arnd 45-50mins i shld haf take till woodlands enough .. ==" blur me well, as that Mr Selamat is still not yet found the causeway is jamming daily my long journey started at the middle of MARSILING and Wdlands.. n i walked walked n walked... walked back to jb... tat's really a long journey.. arnd.. an hr? orz.. and i nearly lost my way @ woodlands center.. well... 1st time really walked like this.. hrm... Labels: daily
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Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 1:04 AM
wondering
just saw a girl mentioned was interested in DCP polymer tech in forum lol i was wondering shld i encourage her or vice versa? even if i choose the rite course, i myself still doubting right now how shld i give any advice? just a bit surprise tat someone actually interested in polymer when she herself haven really knows what polymer really is.. which seldom happen towards and arnd me. but well can only say polymer is fun n boring easy and tough okay i know i said le = din said so.. ya.. i got no conclusion towards the course i took for the past 4 sems.. Labels: daily, thoughts
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Saturday, March 8, 2008 @ 11:11 PM
Full Time Job PLS
oh well now feeling kinda empty but relieve is okay if u dont get what i mean as i myself dont understand how i feel always planned to enter adv dip this yr n there were times that really consider if i shld postpone this plan but well actually all this not in my control lol as i m not accepted u see without work permit i cldnt apply for adv dip what a big joke mr lau shld check properly before telling me im accepted this may reduce the death rate of my brain cells.. >< which means now 100% focus on finding a job whatever location it may be.. hrm no more hestitation or so.. btw, thnx Clara informing abt the enrolment letter if not till now i still dont noe that the letter was already sent out.. == Labels: daily, thoughts
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Monday, March 3, 2008 @ 5:43 PM
lonely
whenever there's a chance to stay alone in crowds that's the time whereby we get to think and get to feel Black coffee will still as bitter even plenty of sugar is added in anybody realise this? this is what i found this morn sitting alone at mac's cafe was alone in lib for few hrs manage to finish a book wonder that was how long ago until i touched this book today? 有一间咖啡厅 这是书名 总是对于“咖啡”和“寂寞”的书特别有兴趣 总是觉得以上两者 怎么看怎么有关联 也不知道为什么 总是能在这一类的书籍得到共鸣。 然后今天我又发觉 其实很多时候我不是寂寞 只是选择了寂寞 选择了感觉淡淡的寂寞 选择了寂寞作伴 作者的思绪 作者的感觉 和我得很像 文字间 仿佛看到的 就是自己头脑里想的 或许， 有时的选择寂寞， 只是保护自己的一种方式 只是想要休息的一种模式 只是想要自我隔离的方程式
寂寞，或许是一种从现实生活，社会中潜逃最有效的捷径吧！ Labels: daily, thoughts
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@ 5:31 PM
Spore? JB?
okay all the while i thought was calling from spore's company but actually was the JB's n well this again shows how important a good communication is it anyway the JB's Josh? or John? called n laugh in the phone stating he was calling from JB's i was like.. OH!! btw, this guy has a nice voice. =) erm, well which means today i purposely went to Spore's n fill in the forms n i wonder if they really need someone like me.. well which means job searching still nid to carry on... n, for the coming days.. i will still... stuck at home Labels: daily
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Sunday, March 2, 2008 @ 9:37 PM
good luck
somehow i think that's the limit all the best for 2ml as i shall bit goodbye to these rotting days enough really Labels: daily
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